a post, just for lisa
So, my landlady screwed me over, and i sort of went on a self-imposed internet hiatus: returning to my journal, writing more stories....communicating with those who care, and trying not to stab myself in the throat with a steak knife at work.
I've met a number of friends that i went to school with in Ottawa lately. It's such a small world (although, to be fair it's not like I'm hundreds of miles away or anything).
Work has been both great and horrible. Some nights I come home and cry and drink decaf coffee because of the people that I have been subjected to. It's like they don't see that everywhere is busy and I'm not being terrible -- I'm trying to DO 50 things at once. On the other hand I have never worked in a more supportive atmosphere, EVER. I get to work and regardless of my mood starting out i feel energised and happy to be there. I know it won't be like this forever - people have to come and go, me being one of them eventually - but I love it the way it is right now. So I am trying my best not to complain. Plus, leaving work with an extra 60-100+ $ a night is just fantastic.
I've been angry at Vancouver lately. I've been feeling very accusatory. I've been withholding. Dont ask what, because i don't know. I posted about a week ago, explaining that i wouldn't be posting for an undisclosed time, and would only intermittantly be answering emails and returning phone calls. Jake told me it was melodramatic so i took it down. It's funny, because the only emails i've actually recieved since then were from some lists i subscribe to, including not one but TWO from the infamous brad(and a bunch from the school that WON'T LET ME GO, as well as one from a pastor who has been blatantly ignoring my existance for almost three years now). That right there is God and his sense of humour going "HAH, BITCH".
But.
I DID have a nice conversation with Christa the other day. Some people I owe more to than I've ever had -- she is one of them.
ANYHOW. I work tonight -- i think at 5:15 (it's written down in my agenda, I'll find out later), and I have a few errands to run (actually, Jake does. Since it's a nice day I am going to keep him company. Lisa , seeing as this entry is for you, would you reccomend any good gamecube adventure games? He finished windwaker and is at a bit of a loss.). Since I can't go out looking like ass, I must shower. :x You know i love you, lisa mine.
So, my landlady screwed me over, and i sort of went on a self-imposed internet hiatus: returning to my journal, writing more stories....communicating with those who care, and trying not to stab myself in the throat with a steak knife at work.
I've met a number of friends that i went to school with in Ottawa lately. It's such a small world (although, to be fair it's not like I'm hundreds of miles away or anything).
Work has been both great and horrible. Some nights I come home and cry and drink decaf coffee because of the people that I have been subjected to. It's like they don't see that everywhere is busy and I'm not being terrible -- I'm trying to DO 50 things at once. On the other hand I have never worked in a more supportive atmosphere, EVER. I get to work and regardless of my mood starting out i feel energised and happy to be there. I know it won't be like this forever - people have to come and go, me being one of them eventually - but I love it the way it is right now. So I am trying my best not to complain. Plus, leaving work with an extra 60-100+ $ a night is just fantastic.
I've been angry at Vancouver lately. I've been feeling very accusatory. I've been withholding. Dont ask what, because i don't know. I posted about a week ago, explaining that i wouldn't be posting for an undisclosed time, and would only intermittantly be answering emails and returning phone calls. Jake told me it was melodramatic so i took it down. It's funny, because the only emails i've actually recieved since then were from some lists i subscribe to, including not one but TWO from the infamous brad(and a bunch from the school that WON'T LET ME GO, as well as one from a pastor who has been blatantly ignoring my existance for almost three years now). That right there is God and his sense of humour going "HAH, BITCH".
But.
I DID have a nice conversation with Christa the other day. Some people I owe more to than I've ever had -- she is one of them.
ANYHOW. I work tonight -- i think at 5:15 (it's written down in my agenda, I'll find out later), and I have a few errands to run (actually, Jake does. Since it's a nice day I am going to keep him company. Lisa , seeing as this entry is for you, would you reccomend any good gamecube adventure games? He finished windwaker and is at a bit of a loss.). Since I can't go out looking like ass, I must shower. :x You know i love you, lisa mine.