First and foremost...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO K RABBIT!!!! She turns 18 today and woo hoo she made it! She's as sane as anybody who spends as much time as she does with me could ever be...and we (being me) wish her many happy returns and Christian Bale (or Joaquim whosit) for her birthday that launches her into the role of *responsible* voter.
There now. Now that i've said that, i can also mention what an IDIOT i am. I unblocked Jason. And he is whining about how we *never worked out*. Ugh. i blamed it on the timing. i neglected to mention that underneath his oily skin is a whiny, bratty, SPOILED son of a bitch. He's also complaining how 'girls don't like him'. Possibly because he wears (as an aftershave) desperation. Lordy. Some people.
Dammit - i missed a call on my cell phone, and that more or less irritates me. I think i need caller ID (but i won't get it. I don't want to spend an extra 5$ a month. if they REALLY love me, they'll leave a message or call back. Speaking of calling me back, that LOSER finally did. He says that his cell phone was broken- except that the phone people ALWAYS give you a replacement phone while it gets fixed. And it's not like he never saw me online. He could have emailed me. or anything. Regardless of all of that i will phone him back. if only to tell him what i think of him.).
I ALSO bought the bomber jacket..and a new computer. Actually, it's an OLD computer...but i've got it up and running - though the people who donated it to the DACD left out much of the software that they bought. Like (it's a mac, btw) they had a translator program that lets you work in Word but they didn't give me the disk...so here are all these neato little things that i can't use. Not to mention that i have to download the upgrade because the comp is THAT OLD, and the floppy drive won't work with the ancient system. All in all though, it means that i have a new computer that i can type up various things without the temptation of the internet.
And so...you have it. Me RIGHTNOW in a nutshell.
ta

The boy's name was Santiago.
"What is a personal calling? It is God's blessing, it is the path that God chose for you here on Earth. Whenever we do something that fills us with enthusiasm, we are following our legend. However, we don't all have the courage to confront our own dream.
Why?
There are four obstacles. First: we are told from childhood onward that everything we want to do is impossible. We grow up with this idea, and as the years accumulate, so too do the layers of prejudice, fear, and guilt. There comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. But it's still there.
If we have the courage to disinter dream, we are then faced by the second obstacle: love. We know what we want to do, but are afraid of hurting those around us by abandoning everything in order to pursue our dream. We do not realize that love is just another impetus, not something that will prevent us going forward. We do not realize that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey.
Once we have accepted that love is a stimulus, we come up against the third obstacle: fear of the defeats we will meet on the path. We who fight for our dream suffer far more when it doesn't work out, because we cannot fall back on the old excuse:' oh well, i didn't really want it anyway." We do want it and know that we have staked everything on it and that the path of the personal calling is no easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey. ... Then comes the fourth obstacle: the fear of realizing the dream for which we fought all our lives.
Oscar Wilde said:" Each man kills the thing he loves." And it's true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and feel that we do not deserve what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far. ... This is the most dangerous of the obstacles because it has a saintly aura about it: renouncing joy and conquest. But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here"
--Paulo Coelho, author of The Alchemist