..I'm Free!..
...incidently, and listening to Tommy. Ohh the memories.

Gah. he's not answering his cell phone. Thusly i am bored. And somewhat melodramatic. So...you shall hear my rant and my fears until i can calm myself down.
"Crazy flipper fingers" lol. Ohh the lyrics. Mm. I suppose i could go put my grad dress on (i bought the earrings and the gloves adn the shawl. *sighs*) and see if it still fits, what with all my...stuff....no...i can't focus.

Mm. Hamsy and Kei have come back to futon. Hamsy calles K a "hippercrit". Ohhhh yes. it's very, very true. And it makes me laugh.

...could it be because he is avoiding me? (stop it Kora. I know what you're thinking. You're astounded that i can be this moronic. Truthfully, so am i. My gosh, so am i. But the thoughts are there...and i told you why. Because of my first 'incident' with an unmentionable. So. That's it. It's all part and parcel with me.) It just occured to me how jealous Po would be if she knew. She'd be horrible, wouldn't she?

...am i really being this petty? I suppose i am. Meh. meh. why can't i focus?!

mm. Going to harass the comment feature of other peoples blogs. Maybe come back. Maybe not. AM so.......grrr. lol.

But i AM happy that Hamsy and Kei are back. I missed them so. lol
ta

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Four words that made my day:
I. Like. You. Too.

I called him because i was bored. He ditched his best friend. We talked until seven. He walked me to my door. He hugged me. I started to go inside but sort of hesitated.
"You have something to say?" He asks
"Yes" I say, struggling with myself. He waits patiently as i form words and gather courage. "I like you". It's simple. It's just that simple.
"I like you too". he pauses "but i don't want to rush into anything - i have a habit of doing that."
"that's ok. I understand. I feel the same way. But you do like me too?"
"Yes. I wouldn't say it otherwise. You're a fascinating person"

And i said ok, smiled and walked inside. And it was that simple. And so, tonight i find myself strangely giddy at the prospect of what the future might hold for me. And...yeah

...but how do i tell Jess?

Song(Bonus Track)
Matchbox Twenty

I found out on a late night drive
in my winder coat with my bloodshot eyes
Well my faith ain't been No friend to me
And the way I sin is hanging off of me

And i saw you there
You can't take me anywhere
Pretty soon we're almost there
Baby one more night
It's been a long long drive
And I'm way way tired
I don't need no backup plan

I don't want nobody
Nobody don't want me
I'm so sad so lonely
I'm always landing on my feet

One more time wIth a sad sad smile
And your white bred friends in the circus life
All the one way rides And the sweet beginnings
Passing on the lefthand side with a sideways smile

And I'm always one step ahead from stalling
Well bad trips can make great starts
Baby dance all night with your ass on fire
And your hands up high and feel me one more time

I don't want nobody
Nobody don't want me
I'm so sad so lonely
I'm always landing on my feet

Well I learned to love myself
And I don't need no one else
And when love moves on 'Cause it gets cold
Well then love moves in And it can fill the hole
I'm one more hopeful
Lying on the bedroom floor no sense trying
When the whole thing drops you lose your nerve
I hope you get what you deserve

I don't want nobody
Nobody don't want me
I'm so sad so lonely
I'm always landing on my feet

..somehow that feels like it fits right now. Sorry about any errors(and I know they're there).

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, he called me and asked me if i wanted to watch the Matrix with him. I said of course. He came over and we watched it (though Lisa watched it with us. But that was ok)...then talked. And there was a point where i swear he was going to kiss me....but didn't.Here....the convo.
Him:So you believe life is better lived with passion?
Me: Yes. Why bother doing anything half-assed? Jump into it head first.
Him: But you'd get more hurt that way.
Me: In the end it's worth it.
(that's where i thought.......but he didn't. m. don't know what i'd have done if he tried. Laughed probably. Which wouldn't have been smooth at all, would it?)
There was another bit.....
Me:(something about living life to the fullest......not regretting...only getting one shot)
Him:So you're saying sin as much as you can before you die?
Me:No! shh *points at window*! My parents sleep with their window open!
Him:Right, right. Sorry. They'll be like 'who is this guy talking about sin! (quieter) trying to get their daughter.
I tried to stop him and get him to go back but he just kept talking.

But the fact that he phoned ME. Asked ME. Didn't invite anyone else along (and he had run into some friends).....and yeah. And i can't say that he didn't know about anyone else who hadn't seen the Matrix.

I completely ditched rob, too. ANd he saw him here. oops. Right now i'm too....too....wired to be overly upset.

Anyways...i'm off...and phone me tomorrow. i've much to say, but if i start yelling/giggling attribute it to my lack of sleep.

ta for now