...Pushed down so hard you can hear him start to sink....
This entry will not be the happiest of fare. Normally I can fake a good mood long enough to squeeze out an amused anecdote but not today. Today i am tired. Today i am stressed out. Yesterday sucked and it's spilling over into today.
why, you ask? Why did yesterday suck?
-Argument with co-worker(look, Lady. I'm sorry - I can't do your work for you because i have OTHER things to do. These are my last four(four too many) days. Besides. I was never your servant/slave/peon. Do your own bloody work)
-My father totalled the jeep. He';s ok - the people in the car he demolished are ok. That's what i'm trying to focus on. I mean, he could have been killed. The OTHER person could have been killed. It's still just...another stress. At Christmas.
-My leaving, you know, the country.
-My inability at TaeK, not to mention this SEVERE case of writers block. ESPECIALLY when T & T is on such a deadline.
- The EX. Too many questions. too many inquisitions and demands.

And you have no idea..
How close I am to just breaking down. I'm just....so...stressed out. I almost burst into tears today. And i don't know what i need to make it better. No, i do know. But. Keep up a strong front, right? It can only get better. Or worse. MY WORD I've got to stop that. And so, if i randomly burst into tears (or gales of laughter) please, just hug me/ignore me as is appropriate.

Anyhow
I'll be updating futon soon. Today, in fact. Perhaps I can...bah.

I just need some good company.