Another Dream and a Strange Revelation
I was sleeping and i had a dream about "Ren". He and i were talking about how we'd dated, and he was saying something along the lines of "well, it would've happened sooner or later". ANd i woke up...happy-ish but tired. Guess who was at church the next morning.... yes. Ren. THEN i 'm at work, and i'm thinking about it and i realize that every time he's in town and i don't know about it - the day before he just 'turns up' i always have a dream about him. A premonition, for lack of a better word. And i dunno. The book i'm reading talks about links that you can't detect or see - sort of....soul ties. But i don't think i have one with him. Why WOULD i? Other than my own pathetic desire...

But i'm happy right now. possibly because of the music i'm listening to...anyhow. He's closer to me that he has been all year. FOr that i'm thankful. I've decided that i like more of what he is to me in my mind that what he actually is. That's usually the way it goes, though. Who knows.

Not I!

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